Flash Fiction, Random Rants, tutto e niente

Rejection

Where the hell was that girl with his whiskey? It was cold in the courtyard. And drafty. But they wouldn’t let him smoke inside. And he really needed one. It was his first in six months so he probably didn’t need it so much as he wanted it. But right now he wasn’t in the mood to dissect the difference. He was too busy trying to pretend he didn’t really care. But his attempts at pretending collapsed almost immediately. He couldn’t lie to himself. He had wanted it. Bad.

As he thought about their rejection, he second-guessed every decision he had made. Where had he gone wrong? All he ever really wanted was to belong. Maybe that was it. Maybe they could smell the overwhelming need seeping out of his pores like a rancid perfume. The kind that claims to be glamorous but really is just cheap. Well screw them. He didn’t need to belong to their stupid group. Probably just a bunch of blowhards and know-it-alls. He took a long drag off his Camel and let his mind drift. He could see the headline now: “Unknown Author Defies Odds with Million Dollar Book Advance.”

But even as that thought formed, a single tear dropped. Stupid writing workshop.

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Photo by Matej on Pexels.com

 

I dedicate this to all my past rejections. Without them, I would not/could not be ME!

And thanks to all y’all (below) for your inspiration in word and picture!

Haunted Wordsmith

FOWC from Fandango (belong)

Weekly Prompts (glamorous)

The House of Bailey (need)

 

Haiku & Other Poetry, Random Rants, tutto e niente

If the Caged Betta Could Stir Up the Sea

how liberating

to be a man for a day

and be free of me

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Fandango posed an interesting (provocative even) question today: “If you could be the opposite sex for one day, what would you do?” As I thought about the question, I kept coming back to the same general thought—freedom. So instead of writing about the laundry list of things that would be different if I were a man or a presenting a manifesto on how I would use the power of manhood, I kept it simple. Being a man would mean that I was free of the constraints of womanhood.

And oh the places I’d go!  And oh the things I would do!

But I promise I would use my power wisely. I’d only stir up the sea if it was really really necessary.

As yes, I know the men have constraints as well—but that’s not the assignment 😉

Also thanks to The Haunted Wordsmith for the perfect counter-point photo to my before pic. (It’s possible the Betta may actually be a boy, but I’m told it’s a female so I’m going with that interpretation for the sake of my story.)

 

Haiku & Other Poetry, Random Rants, tutto e niente

My First Crush

to discover words

opens your mind to wonder

and your heart to love

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Thanks to The Haunted Wordsmith and Sue Vincent for the great photo prompts. In the midst of the chaos of … well everything, both of these picture reminded me of the sweet calm of my “happy place”–reading. Books really were my first love. The library (and all the wonderful librarians I have known in my life) will always hold a special place in my heart and mind.

Random Rants, tutto e niente

To Do Lists

Yesterday’s To Do List

  • disrupt the status quo
  • smash the patriarchy
  • be an ally
  • shatter the glass ceiling
  • practice intersectional feminism
  • crack open the captivating confines of my privilege
  • be civil

Today’s To Do List

  • disrupt the status quo
  • smash the patriarchy
  • be an ally
  • shatter the glass ceiling
  • practice intersectional feminism
  • crack open the captivating confines of my privilege
  • be civil fuck that
    • be mean to random idiots on twitter until I feel better

Tomorrow’s To Do List

  • disrupt the status quo
  • smash the patriarchy
  • be an ally
  • shatter the glass ceiling
  • practice intersectional feminism
  • crack open the captivating confines of my privilege
  • be civil fuck that
    • be mean to random idiots on twitter until I feel better
  • don’t equate being civil with staying silent: STAY ENGAGED AND DO NOT LOSE HOPE!
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Trying to get my mojo back today and the confluence of prompts from SoCS (mean) and Putting my Feet in the Dirt (captivating confines) and FOWC (disrupt) helped do the trick! Thanks y’all.

 

 

 

Haiku & Other Poetry, Random Rants, tutto e niente

Dangerous Dreams

in danger of hope

we resolve not to question

the dream of all dreams

close up photography of body of water
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Pexels.com

I live in Florida, so if you live in the States (or follow American politics) then you’ll understand my mood this morning. Careening between anger and despair. Trying to find hope by either looking closer to home (I’m proud of my community) or beyond the confines of this ridiculously racist state as a whole. But it’s tough.

Was I stupid to be hopeful?

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Thanks to following for their photo and word inspiration even if everything was filtered through my dark mood!

Sue Vincent’s Wrote Photo Challenge

#FOWC

Putting My Feet in the Dirt

Ronovan Writes