What activities do you lose yourself in?
In the days of yore, my two favorite morning activities (after coffee of course) were bike riding and writing. Each offered a safe space where the passing of time seemed to disappear. The rhythmic pace of the peddling and the quiet tap of the keyboard were all I needed to reach a zen-like state. For many years, they were the flip sides of my morning meditation routine.
I can still lose hours writing (although “lose” seems like the wrong word because it’s wonderful to be in that zone), but my biking experience has changed.
Two years ago, I crashed. And now, among other things, I’m full of titanium.
I still bike, but I’ve lost that ability to get lost in the moment. Instead, I’m a bit obsessed with scrutinizing every bump. And holding my breath. And bracing for possible impact. I feel trapped in that last second before the world comes crashing down.
(It’s remarkably similar to how I feel about the world in general. We’ve clearly gotten stuck in the worst timeline. Reagan’s repulsive Morning in America campaign escalated the Doomsday clock and we’re hurtling towards the end. The courts won’t save us. VOTE BLUE.)
But, I digress …
I feel trapped but I’m not. I keep moving. I remind myself to feel the rhythm when I peddle. Avoid the obstacles, but also notice all the beauty around me. And to breathe.
I’m hopeful that someday soon, I’ll once again be able to lose myself in the moment.
Tina Stewart Brakebill 
AGreed! The wheels of my mind turn when biking, or my running or hiking shoes are doing the miles. I easily get lost in music, beat of smooth Jazz. Dee Tezelli, author of 24+eBooks/Paperbacks on Amazon Kindle. Won’t you try a few?
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It sounds like we have much in common. Praying for you to experience the meditation during riding that you once did.🙏🏻❤️
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Ouch! That arm x-ray looks excruciating! Glad you survived and recovered too!
I feel trapped in a world run by idiots too just now. Seems it can only get worse at the moment too.
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Dumpster fire 🔥
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An interesting way to put it haha.
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Before I busted my hip in January 23, I too would lose myself while biking and I loved it. I had an electric bike, so I was able to conquer even the steepest hills. But those days are behind me, I fear.
As to the second matter you addressed, “dumpster fire” is a good way of putting it…or maybe a “Trumpster fire.” But it has the potential to move to a massive scale if we don’t stop it. I hope it can be stopped before the Trumpster fire burns down our whole country.
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Me too. I’m exhausted and terrified. I never imagined we’d be this close to living in a dystopian novel.
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I know, but here we are.
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Roller skating, biking, jogging, were ways I’d hit that zen-state. I’ve had to leave those all behind because of various injuries. Now, my two favorite ways of reaching that state is writing and long road trips.
I’m glad you have been able to get back on your bike, and hope you can reach that state of zen, once again.
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Thanks 😊
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